Currently Listening Afterglow By Sarah McLachlan see related

today was my sisters birthday

i didnt even see her

i didnt get her anything.

the house flooded, hands and knees and scrubbing in pjs was my morning

your ignoring my calls.

your being a dick.

i expected it, because i know "perfect" never explains u

i really dont want you in my life enymore.

i really dont want to think about you

because everytime i fall, i get hurt

im sick of feeling lyk i have to beg

im sick of feeling lyk im not good enough

because i am or you wouldnt come back to me

im sick of feeling lyk one day you care, the next you

dont anymore, your feelings just change lyk hands on a clock

im sick of the love hate relationship

the loves faded

i hate you rite now. maybe not for long. but for now.

I just cry because you make me feel lyk an idiot

lyk i call you, lyk i have to do things for you

you make me feel lyk im not worth your time

like every other girl around is more important

for one moment i feel important

and when i leave theres someone more important

i dont lyk it

i am a princess

i deserve your heart your feelings

i deserve to be made important

I dont want you. I dont want your hurt. I dont want your smiles.

I dont want your whats wrongs, or apologizes.

I dont want you. I want a replacement.

This year has been an eyeopener.

Probably the Most consuming;crazy;out there year so far.

I've already been hurt, gone through struggles, been so happy i dont know where to start, had my cry, went to a big dance. Pretty much full filled everything.

It's just weird; idkk the thought of how life changes so fast and it passes you by, sometimes you have to stop and smell the sunshine.

I am scared of changes to come, and of hardship, and of everything that is to come even in the next month.

• karissa is having a baby boy in three weeks

It is crazy I never thought my sister would get married but now shes almost having a kid of her own. I called her the other day cause i did something stupid, and i realized i dont know whut i would do without her, shes amazing.

I'm so scared though of how parenting will change her and idk what she will be like she has been the cool older sister?.

I have had boy after boy and I am finally with a boy that I like a lot, and I care about. Every boy is always difficult though.

Christmas came and went. I got almost everything that I wanted, I saw a lot of family, ate a lot of food, did everything as normal.

Ily. I hope all is well with everyone.

It's just come about me to write.

& I don't even know why. But it's probably because I feel like babling about my deals; Which more so often then not, are stupid.

I Hate boy. I just do. I don't understand why every single boy can never say something he actually means, It's like boys have a readers manual & the first rule is "Never treat girls right"

They are such slutfaces. & Not the good kind. lol. I hate it that they can never say I love you & mean it..It's lyk they just sey it to get something, or so they can show you off to his friends, then dump you, cause being a player is whut every guy wants.

Stupid.

They say that girls mature faster then boys, And i am definately understanding that now.

Ohh well. thats all.

Screw them.

okay so yhea it's been twenty thousand years since i updated so i decided to update cause i felt like it so how bout chu deal? MMKAY.

Lifes been interesting so many things have changed that I can't possibly name them all.

Me && Quinn broke up a long ass tym ago, and were cool now. I went out with Brandon, long story short, we broke up too, and we are trying to go back to the way that we used to be but its not easy. I never thought we wouldn't be friends, although i guess shit happeneds.

me && Danny started going out yesterday and that makes me happy. Aside from that schools going okay. I never get any of my work done it is pretty much pathetic. But besides that I'm getting okay grades and I made a lot of friends at O-town.

I won't lie I miss tampa terribly, I miss my ashley, brett, adam. They are still my life and everything in it. I miss ashley and our inside jokes and i ocassionally think about whut life would be like if i were in tampa, but everythings changing and its kinda scarey.

I love you kidds <3

well, me and quinn are not together, but i think we will be just fine because we were hurting eachother by being together.

We were perfect for eachother is whut everyone seys, but i would not sey that or we wouldn't be in this place right now. I still do love him, thats not gunna change, and it might hurt for a while, but we will see how things go.

I juss want him and me to be happy. And if we cannot be happy together, we can't be together. You gies might not understand now, but you didn't see how we were towards the end.

I still love you Quinn, things will be just fine.